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I wish I was posting to say I had a great month with a nice weight loss, but the opposite is true. I had a very out-of-control month. It was probably one of the worst months of binge eating I had since I started this blog. The scales don't lie, and the tight feeling of my clothes is a constant reminder of the lousy choices I made during the past month. I messed up big time! The way it's affected my health in such a short period of time has been eye-opening. From body aches and pains to sitting up at night because I'm short of breath, the extra pounds I packed on as a result of binge eating really are killing me. My entire body is out of balance. Did I mention I neglected to attend any Weight Watchers meetings over the past month? Do you think that had just a little something to do with my loss of focus?
Now, I'm asking myself the question, "Was it worth it?" Of course it wasn't! That's the strange thing about addictions. It's much the same whether one is addicted to drugs, alcohol, or food. You know how horrible it makes you feel, but you do it anyway. Each time I fall off the wagon, it's one more lesson from the school of hard knocks that I shouldn't have had to learn. That being said, it's time to face the truth and move on. I can't change a thing I did over the past month.
I did go see the naturopathic doctor recently. It was very informative regarding how we truly are what we eat. It all makes sense, and my choices during the last month confirmed what I learned from the doctor. I do believe a lot of our health issues can be cured by a healthy diet and lifestyle alone. One thing she impressed on me was the importance of making peace with my body. Psalm 139 tells us that we are fearfully and wonderfully made. She told me I needed to stop seeing my body and excess weight as ugly and to view my body as God's creation made to function properly and to last me a lifetime. She said once we start loving the body God gave us, we can move forward to take proper care of ourselves. She stressed the need to add more fresh and unprocessed foods into my diet, including plenty of organic fruits and vegetables. Overall, it was a valuable visit. I just need to apply what I learned and break out of this destructive eating pattern I've fallen into.
I went shopping today and restocked my fridge and cupboards with the things I need to get back on track. This truly is a lifelong struggle, but I'm thankful for the determination to keep getting back up again when I fall. I've missed the feeling I have when I eat healthy. I hate the out-of-control mentality I've lived with for the past month. I fell back into the obesity pit, and life in the pit really isn't life at all.
Anyway, enough is enough. I'm ready for a fresh start. I feel like this journey has been composed of one step forward and two steps back. But, I feel as long as I keep taking that step forward I will be okay. I may fail and I may fall, but I will never quit. Here's to new and fresh beginnings....again. :)
Now, I'm asking myself the question, "Was it worth it?" Of course it wasn't! That's the strange thing about addictions. It's much the same whether one is addicted to drugs, alcohol, or food. You know how horrible it makes you feel, but you do it anyway. Each time I fall off the wagon, it's one more lesson from the school of hard knocks that I shouldn't have had to learn. That being said, it's time to face the truth and move on. I can't change a thing I did over the past month.
I did go see the naturopathic doctor recently. It was very informative regarding how we truly are what we eat. It all makes sense, and my choices during the last month confirmed what I learned from the doctor. I do believe a lot of our health issues can be cured by a healthy diet and lifestyle alone. One thing she impressed on me was the importance of making peace with my body. Psalm 139 tells us that we are fearfully and wonderfully made. She told me I needed to stop seeing my body and excess weight as ugly and to view my body as God's creation made to function properly and to last me a lifetime. She said once we start loving the body God gave us, we can move forward to take proper care of ourselves. She stressed the need to add more fresh and unprocessed foods into my diet, including plenty of organic fruits and vegetables. Overall, it was a valuable visit. I just need to apply what I learned and break out of this destructive eating pattern I've fallen into.
I went shopping today and restocked my fridge and cupboards with the things I need to get back on track. This truly is a lifelong struggle, but I'm thankful for the determination to keep getting back up again when I fall. I've missed the feeling I have when I eat healthy. I hate the out-of-control mentality I've lived with for the past month. I fell back into the obesity pit, and life in the pit really isn't life at all.
Anyway, enough is enough. I'm ready for a fresh start. I feel like this journey has been composed of one step forward and two steps back. But, I feel as long as I keep taking that step forward I will be okay. I may fail and I may fall, but I will never quit. Here's to new and fresh beginnings....again. :)
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